In Search of Grace

In Search of Grace

Emotions flowing unrestrained
Bring mem’ries which before were chained
And visions of my life gone past
Are seen as through a darkened glass.

Sweet memories of former days
When happiness was still ablaze.
The world then hugged me to its breast –
My life was bright and I was blessed.

Now distanced from my conscious thoughts
I look behind and see I’ve bought
This present time a-prick with thorns,
A future full of winter storms.

The choices made have brought me here –
To loneliness and anguished tears.
The clock can never be turned back
For once it’s lived the time has past.

I came here with the highest hopes
For I felt I could learn to cope.
I had belief in who I am
I’d build new dreams and make new plans.

Bright promises were made to me –
A vision built which I could see.
Then something changed along the way –
The vision dimmed and turned to gray.

Uncertainty now rules my life.
I’m full of angst and inner strife.
My dreams lay shattered at my feet –
My disillusion is complete.

And so I drift through empty days.
I must endure and find a way
To build on inner strength and peace,
Until the time I am released.

And when released, my duty done
I’ll make my move, whate’er may come.
I’ll venture on and find a place
Where I can live with peace and grace.

Anjaleck © February 11, 2002